As many of you may have heard, this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week (Feb 26 – March 3). I support NEDA as much as possible with the hell I have been through trying to recover from my ’bout with anorexia and all the things they were able to provide me with along the way. This week, I will be going over some old Side Notes posts that are near and dear to my heart, along with many of you. I still have many Side Notes posts that are the most popular out of every post on the blog and I am proud to know how much they have helped others with their struggles.
So without further adieu, here is a post I look back on often to remind myself how much my body really means to me:
12 May, 2010
[[Side Note: Dear Body
Is it too late for me to apologize to you? For not treating your like you should have been treated for so many years?
I’m sorry for all those years that I bullied you, telling you you weren’t enough, that you weren’t strong enough, pretty enough, or worth it.
I’m sorry for all the food I deprived you of that would help you grow and develop correctly. I’m sorry you weren’t able to enjoy so many of your favorite foods for so long and I made you eat things with no flavor and so very littler nutrients.
I’m sorry for all the times I told you you weren’t good enough to hang out with your friends, go out to a restaurant, have a drink with your friends and do stupid things that would make the most awesome memories.
I’m sorry for all the miles that I made you run, and not for fun. I’m sorry all those miles were solely to burn off calories for even the little food you ate at the time. I’m sorry you didn’t enjoy so many of those and took precedence over the things you could have been doing otherwise and actually enjoying.
I’m sorry for all the things I have put you through you should not have gone through in the past 7 years. I’m sorry it has taken me so long to realize that what I was doing was wrong and destructive to you.
But now, I hope that I can treat you better. I hope that I have learned how to fuel you properly and provide you with the vitamins and minerals you need to perform and repair yourself correctly.
I hope that I won’t beat you up and you will become stronger and more confident as I embark on a mission to run another 1/2 marathon and train for my first sprint triathlon by the end of the year.
I hope that you realize how beautiful you are, how you have the ability to do so many things and accomplish so many dreams. I hope you know you can travel to far away countries and try foods you’ve never even heard of, hike mountains that poke into the clouds, play in rivers with all sorts of crazy things, and have fun all the while.
I hope you know how much I love you, how much I appreciate you, how grateful I am that you continue to put one foot in front of the other and help me live the life I want to live doing the jobs I love to do outdoors saving our planet and mother nature.
What would you tell your body today? ]]