[[Side Notes: 15 Minutes or Less
Every two weeks when I go in and see my counselor she asks me if I've been having any negative thinking. Normally I say yes, and explain how I am able to combat the irrational thoughts, but this week, she added in an extra question and asked: How long does it take?
Lately I've been dealing with my stomach issues (again), being diagnosed with piriformis syndrome (hip/pelvic muscle problem), along with trying to get in as much time with Whit as I can before I move. It's hard when I don't know what is wrong with my body and that I live kind of far from Whit. So, with all that and more in mind, my thoughts have not been all that positive. I try my hardest to keep a positive mindset and focus on what I have in the moment, but we all know how hard that can be.
When I answered her question of how long, I said an hour or more, figuring that I was doing a good job. She initially gave me props for getting over them, period, but then told me I now had a time limit: 15 minutes. I was no longer allowed to think about those negative thoughts for any more than 15 minutes and immediately after had to put it out of my mind.
It's been a challenge this week. Being diagnosed with piriformis syndrome in my hip/pelvis has been hard to take. I'm headed to the PT next week for an evaluation but from what I read, this is a hard syndrome to overcome and heal since it is not a typical runners injury. This was not encouraging to hear. I became flustered. I was angry at my body for betraying me now, as I'm finally hitting my prime for running in my 20's. I had so many plans for running that I feel like I won't be able to do this year, or ever.
But, I took my counselors command to heart, looked at the clock after 15 minutes and told myself: no more wallowing, time to focus on the positive. Over the past three months I've been trying to heal from this on my own by taking up Bobbi's bootcamps and strength training and begun to realize how strong my body can be. I remember the days in high school when I could do 40 guy pushups and two pull ups without a thought. Those days were long gone, until now when I can do almost 30 guy pushups and almost, ALMOST one pull up (so close!). I think that is a huge improvement, since I wasn't able to do more than 10 pushups on my knees at Thanksgiving!
Being able to turn my attitude around so quickly is definitely helping. Dwelling over my negative thoughts never gets me anywhere and always leaves me in a horrible mood for a long time after. I should not spend so much of my time worrying about these negative things!