A Chocolaty Day

Yep, it was one of those days…

Maybe after working out in the field for so many days in a row, so many hours at a time, with no company…I needed the sweet goodness of chocolate.

But I digress, the day didn’t start out that way. Just a few hours later.

And the same breakfast as yesterday…it just never gets old.  Oh, except I used Naturally more PB this time, with the Kashi Go Lean Crunch, peach and strawberries.

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The morning went by so slowly…it was really warm and there were simply no birds anywhere so simply put, I was bored to tears.  I had some trains to keep me company.  These beauties can carry up to 100 carts at a time!

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I left this morning only a 1/2 hour later than normal but something was up with the body.  Maybe it was the heat?  I don’t know, but water was certainly not doing the trick.  I do this survey and normally get done by around lunch time so I thought I’d be able to handle it until then without food…which I didn’t bring.

Thanks goodness I always have smashed up bars at the bottom of my bag.  And a random apple I forgot about from yesterday.

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And the boredom ensued…trying to keep myself occupied by counting windmills instead of birds…because there were none.

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And then the pain started.  OMG I don’t know how I was ever able to ignore the hunger pains when I was at my worst during my ED.  I was in so much pain I felt sick.  I was in so much pain I wanted to faint.  I seriously, could have eaten my arm.  I had no food at this point and was just hoping I could keep myself calm enough for the ride home to not get caught by a cop and get a speeding ticket.  As soon as I got home I dropped everything at the door and ran to the kitchen.  Literally, I ran.  It’s about 25 feet.

I whipped up the fastest mango/blueberry/spinach/USVAB smoothie in a bowl I could, topped off with Kashi Go Lean Crunch and regular TJ’s PB.

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It was like breakfast all over again, except the fruit were blended.

And I might have gotten a bit carried away with how fast I was forcing my sad blender to blend and make my food…cause i chewed on this at one point.

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Oh spatula, I am so sorry.  But you make the greatest and most tasty food.  Sorry I don’t take better care of you.

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I had plans to do my No Trouble Zones DVD this afternoon to take some time off from running…but I ended up on the floor reading and catching up on blogs, environmental news and research and emails I had lost track of…along with some dried cherries and peanuts/cashews to pass the time.  It’s ok, I’ll do the DVD tomorrow.  Maybe.

Faster than I realized I was hungry for dinner and needed food asap.  It was like my body couldn’t get enough food today…I was famished!  I whipped up two eggs and topped them on a salad w/ salsa and leftover potatoes from last night.

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Makes me wonder how days like this come about, where my hunger is completely insatiable and I can’t do anything but eat and eat and eat.  Thoughts?  What do you do on days like this?

So I had some more chocolate.  Don’t hate, cause I’m not.  They were ubber super tasty.

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It’s the end of the day and only one more till the weekend…and some birthday celebrations.  Super.freak’n.excited.

25 years of age in 4 simple days.  Makes me feel old…actually, just more mature and having learned so much.  I’ll review my 24th year with you this weekend.  And let you in on the things I plan/hope to accomplish in my 25th. :)

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9 Responses to A Chocolaty Day

  1. Mama Pea says:

    What do I really do on days like this or what am I going to tell you to do?

    I remember that it all evens out. I may be starving today and eating like a mad woman but that probably means tomorrow I won't be as hungry…and it all averages out!

    I think you need more emergency food in your car!!!

  2. kate says:

    I get so scared that Im going to blend off my spatula!

  3. Beth @ bride in the little white dress says:

    I was a bottomless pit today too and honestly I felt guilty about it. But Mama Pea's comment puts everything in perspective….it all evens out in the end. We just have to keep listening to our bodies.

  4. Krista says:

    My sister turned 25 on Sept 12! You 2 are practically twins. LOL

    Somedays I am hungirer than others for sure. I just try to roll with it b/c letting myself get too hungry leads to heartburn. Ouch!

  5. runwritetherapylife says:

    I absolutely have days like that, where I am just insatiable, out of the blue. I think our hormones/cycles play a role; also, sometimes our bodies are just unpredictable, and that's okay! You fed it with such good food, too. A giant SIAB with cereal and PB happens to be my favorite hanger-quenching food ever too!

    On super hungry days, I make sure not to judge myself. I acknowledge that I am a very active person and that hunger is not a character flaw! It seems like you responded to your hunger really well, emotionally and physically — give yourself credit for that! :)

  6. Jessica @ The Process of Healing says:

    I have days like that too… and I just try to go with it and listen to my body and eat according to hunger cues, not when I "should" be eating.
    My chocolate cravings have been OUT OF CONTROL lady. I pretty much want to dive into that bowl of chocolate…
    Love you girl!

  7. Marianne (frenchfriestoflaxseeds) says:

    No one's food intake is the same from day to day – some days you eat a ton of food, others you don't. It's all about the long term average. Try to not get hung up on the day to day and view it in a bigger picture. Maybe a week, maybe a few days at a time?

    And girl, 25 ain't old ;) Wait til you reach those ages starting with 3…

  8. Meredith (Pursuing Balance) says:

    Some days I'm hungrier than others too, even if I eat the same breakfast both days!
    Happy almost birthday :)

  9. Gabriela says:

    I have days like that too, and while it's hard not to feel guilty about it, I remind myself that some days I probably don't eat enough, either! It all balances out, it really does. And I'm still convinced that quality of calories matters more than the calories themselves :)

    Hope you had a wonderful weekend of celebration!

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