I’m Watching…

It was an action packed day today for sure!  I slept well and was up at the crack of dawn to get some birding done!  Getting a solid 7 hrs of sleep in my own bed was awesome and refreshing to say the least.
I had an action packed breakfast too.  I missed my frozen smoothies!

See the shorter hair?  So much cooler, like literally, temperature wise.
Such beautiful scenery; I don’t know that I’ll ever get sick of it…I mean, how could you not?  I can’t wait till winter to see all of this completely covered in snow…even though I despise the snow and cold.  That’s a whole other story.
The morning was exciting and filled with the raptors I so dearly love, so I’m sure you can imagine how giddy I was having the rare ones fly over my head; I swear I was like a 4 year old in a candy store, I was that squealy!
I ate my lunch (apple, pb and cinnamon wrap) from yesterday but before leaving my apartment this morning added another tablespoon of Naturally More PB…I’m finally getting the hang of this whole eating foods to keep me satisfied instead of them just being a number.  Go figure; it only took me almost 25 years.  Sadness.
I ran into these beauties on the way out and I think the head male mustang was not happy with my presence…I booked it super cute after I heard him huffing; never a good sound.
I had a speed workout planned for after therapy this evening so I snacked on some cherries mid afternoon along with some H2H, chocolate chips and almond breeze.
After some digestion and emotional revelations I headed to the track to get in my workout: MILE REPEATS.  As much as I hate these things, I know they’re going to do me good.  Well, at least I hope they will.  Maybe tempo runners would be better for a long distance runner?
I ended up doing:
5 minute warmup
3x 1 mile: 8:02:48, 8:20:98, 8:12:06
10 minute cool down and stretching

I don’t know what I was shooting for but I’m pretty happy with the times I got!  Not bad for someone who doesn’t do much speed training…my last session was two weeks ago!  Eek!
Anyhow, every time I finish a workout this pretty little girl likes to lay on me as I stretch…I guess I radiate a lot of heat…she also provides extra weight for planks and pushups; another bonus for owning a kitty!
I scarfed down my dinner of leftover potatoes, brussel sprouts and zucchini from last night with two eggs on the side.  
Nice and quick while I finished up a power point presentation that I’m giving tomorrow for the local rotary club!  I’m nervous but it’s nothing I’ve never talked about before; I love my job and to talk about it, so it never makes me nervous to do so!
[[Side Note: Comparison Trap
First I want to welcome all my new readers and I hope you're enjoying the blog!  If you haven't noticed I have a feature called Side Notes where I talk about my struggles with my eating disorder that I've been trying to rid of for the past 8 years.  You can read more of them from my Side Notes Tab located underneath the blogger header picture if you'd like.  Again, thanks for checking out and reading the blog!
Anyhow, I wanted to discuss some emotions that I had while at HLS since I was so nervous and anxious about it beforehand.  Granted I was excited and enjoying the opportunity to see so many of my great blogger friends, but the sheer act of meeting so many new people had my head spinning.
As much as I would love to say that it was easy and I had no problems during the weekend, that is far from it.  And as much as the weekend focused on getting out the comparison trap, to people and blogs alike, I have to admit that it still happened, but in the same instance made me realize what my blog is really about and why people read it and keep coming back to see more.
At one time I did strive to be like the big bloggers and was overjoyed when they would link to me, sky rocketing my stats through the roof for about oh, 24 hours before it returned to normal.  But in reality, that kind of thing only does so much for my blog and after seeing all that readership disappear, it's a bit of a disappointment.  What do that have that I don't?
I made a goal this year to double the readership for my blog by divulging in bigger and better content and to tell you the truth, it's paying off!!!  My Side Notes features, Single Serving Recipes Section and talking about the environment and my unique work opportunities has helped me double my readership, plus some since January!  I am excited and hope to keep it going through the rest of the year, but it goes to show that you can on your own make your blog successful.
But even though I see this and know that I am my own success and inspiration (does that sound selfish or what?  But truly, you can inspire yourself; there's no shame in that!) it is still hard not to want to be them and have their success.  And not only that, but strive to have their creativity with food, great photography, speed in running or strength in working out, and so much more.
I was originally bogged down with these thoughts at the start of HLS but by the end it has diminished incredibly because I see that so many people can succeed on their own and truly believe in what they do, write and see in the blog world.
So yes, sometimes I wish I had the popularity of Kath, the cooking creativity of Tina, the speed and dedication to running like Meghann, and the writing skills to be offered to write a book like Caitlin...but hey, it's not the end of the world if I don't.  If I were just like them, you wouldn't want to read my blog anyhow!  It wouldn't be original.  And that's why I love them in the first place, because they're all different and inspiring in their own ways.
Ergo, don't be afraid to be different.  Embrace how unique you are and that being big isn't everything.  It's all in good fun anyhow, right?
Do you fall into the Comparison Trap?  How do you escape it?  ]]
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17 Responses to I’m Watching…

  1. Mama Pea says:

    I think short hair is WAY cooler (not temperature-wise).

    I'm happy that I've found my comfortable niche with my blog and stopped trying to be anybody else. I know I'm an original!

    I love the ways your blog has changed too. I feel like I know you a lot better, relate to you more and have a million things I always want to comment on.

    In other words, I love you!

  2. Alison says:

    Hey! This is my first time commenting, but I've been reading for a while. I came to your blog through Gena at Choosing Raw (I think..), and I've stayed with it, reading every day (apart form when your computer is broken! ;) )

    Anyway, I just wanted to say that I've come across other, bigger blogs – and some of them I do follow – but a lot of them I didn't stick with, because they didn't really inspire me. Yours, however, I always read. Because I'm most interested in your personal journey, rather than more food recipes. I think you're really brave blogging about the way you feel, and I'm sure there are so many people who draw strength from it.

    Alison :)

  3. Amber says:

    I'm a first-time commenter and quite long-time reader :) What I first came across on your blog was your Side Notes, and as I read them I started seeing how much I can relate to what you think and feel. That's what I find special about your blog -it makes me feel not so alone knowing you see things the way I do. I love reading your blog exactly because it isn't like the big blogs, I mean, who f.ex. is there with a job like you have?? It looks amazing out there in the desert! Keep going like this and I'm very sure you'll get even more readers!

  4. balancejoyanddelicias says:

    it's good that we accept who we are and be comfortable with us, although I know it's hard not to compare us with others.. peer pressure is there… we can't complete ignore it. It's when those moments, we need to embrace us more.. to remind us how unique and special we are.

  5. Meghann says:

    Remember when you cut your hair short last year and you inspired me to cut mine short like a week later? God I miss my short hair! Your new cut is cute, as always. :)

    And I heart your blog just the way it is. Don't even change or think that you have to change!

  6. ~ Diana ~ says:

    so me and pbfingers started our blog at the same time….while she's getting thousands of readers…I'm stuck at…5. When I come back from blogging I def have to step up the content. And just to let you know I come to your blog cause I enjoy it: the topics, YOU, the single recipes…I go to many of the "popular" ones cause I know it'll be there…I know they will post 3x a day and it's something to read out of boredom…THERE I SAID IT! -mymarblerye

  7. theemptynutjar says:

    I wrote a post on this most recently (and linked to your post from yesterday).
    I do fall into a comparison-trap…BUT , its not so much comparison (like I KNOW better than to compare to "not the norm" examples of the world wide web)…BUT, I get overwhelmed…I feel like we are on this big competitive track and I just want to GET OFF and close my eyes…and remember my intrinsic motivations and desires and joys.
    I hate the competition…because competition leads to envy and jealousy. If I can convert the jealousy into admiration, I might be more contented.
    Sometimes I want to shut off the computer , TV , everything…get back to me and have no pressure or guilt or feeling that i have to do more more more.
    I wonder than…I might actually find peace and accomplishment.

  8. Heather says:

    Love the new haircut – I donated my hair a little over a year ago and have been debating doing it again.

    It is so nice when you feel comfortable with your blog and the direction it is taking.

    Good luck with your presentation – you will do great!

  9. Dorry says:

    Great post! I think it's easy to fall into the comparison trap – but like you said, it's important to showcase your own style, personality and experiences on your blog. I've only been blogging for a bit over 2 months now but after HLS, I took some time to reflect on the reasons I blog and why it's important to me.:) I'm a new reader here – with a past of disordered eating and I'm excited to continue reading! I remember those same feelings of eating for satiety rather than calories (or lack of calories & fat). Nut butters sure do the trick. I eat some everyday. :)

  10. Lena says:

    Hi I've been reading your blog for a while now though I don't comment much but I think you a doing a great job and I like your blog coz you are so real nd thnk you for being so real! ;)

  11. Krista says:

    I'm not a big potato gal, but yours look just perfect!

    As for my blog; sometimes I get bummed out when I don't get very many comments, but I just keep plugging along because what it boils down to is it's fun and a way for me to express myself to people with similar interests. Cuz really, my hubby does not care about what I eat or do at the gym! :)

  12. Jessica @ The Process of Healing says:

    LOVE your hair!!!
    And I agree about blogging. I used to constantly check my stats and worry about the numbers but now? I'm not Kath or Tina or Caitlin and as much as I admire them, I don't want to be them… I'm ME. And my blog is unique. Once the numbers stopped mattering so much, blogging became a LOT more fun!

  13. Andrea of Care to Eat says:

    Love the hair!

  14. Kate@andwhenshesays says:

    Love this post and your blog! I'm also recovering and it is SO hard not to fall into the comparison trap. I definitely struggled with that this weekend, but I found that I'm truly starting to believe that it's GOOD to be me. Just like it's good to be you! The uniqueness of this community is what makes it so special. Like you said, if you weren't you we wouldn't be reading!

  15. dione says:

    This is my first time commenting on your blog, but I've been reading it for about a month. I have to say one of the main reason's I keep coming back is that you are so different from the big named bloggers. You are real!

  16. the actor's diet says:

    not comparing is a difficult, but necessary part of living a sane life – it's something i've had to deal with a lot in my career, and i've found that it's important to just be yourself! i too wish i could be as popular as the "big blogs" but i'm happy with what i've got!

  17. Natalie says:

    cute haircut and great sidenote!

    i have to say, i can't stand some of the so-called "big" bloggers. i'm glad you don't want to be them! i like you! :)

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