Sorry you didn’t give a post about yesterday but my doctor’s appointment did not reveal the results I was hoping for. I’m not going to go into detail about it, but just keep your fingers crossed it’s not going to get any worse.
Anyhow, not to start this post off somber, I’m back at my home and with my kitty! Honey was freak’n crazy by the time I finally got home Monday night and I couldn’t help but laugh…and be paranoid that when I pulled my sheets back they would either be torn to shreds or pee’d on. I’m paranoid, what can I say!?
Today started off on a tired note after a draining day yesterday but at least I started it with my favorite breakfast! Now you might be thinking, isn’t it hard having your cereal completely dry, just mixed with pb and fruit?
To me? Nope; I hate soggy cereal so this keeps everything crunchy! And you wonder why I eat it so often!
The morning went by super hot, in the hundreds and I was sweat’n through every single pore I possess. Water water water! I snacked on water filled fruits like 1/2 an apple and some cherries. Cooled me down for…2 seconds flat.
I got home at a decent hour and instead of having the apple/cinnamon/pb wrap I made, I settled on a whole wheat farmer’s market pita with hummus, and veggies and a side of kiwi.
And if that weren’t enough, I was still hot so I “dessert’d” with some lactose free vanilla ice cream and some chocolate covered pretzels…in which a few whole ones might have gotten to my mouth before the ice cream.
I spent the afternoon doing work and getting 10 inches taken off my body
…what? My waist or hips? Oh hell no, I’m talking about my hair
! For the past few years I have taken the time and care of my hair to get anywhere from 8-10 inches cut off to donate to either Locks of Love
or Pantene Beautiful Lengths
. I haven’t cut or trimmed my hair since May of last year when I cut it for the same reason. Sorry, I don’t have a picture, but it looks the same as last year’s cut
. Besides, I’m sure the person who is going to be able to wear my hair will look much better than me with it on.
Anyhow, I hit up an organic farm this afternoon to pick up a few things for dinner and the rest of the week. So dinner calls for roasted vegetables! I bought some fingerling potatoes in red and purple and couldn’t wait to try!
All together I roasted brussel sprouts, squash and potatoes in garlic and Italian spices:
Along with some hummus and ketchup. Such great dippers!
Dessert was a small mix of grapes, cereal and a mini york peppermint patty. Strange but I wanted juicy, crunchy and cold. Everything satisfied my cravings!
[[Side Note: My Ups and Downs of Blogging
So one of the sessions we got to attend at HLS was the Ups and Downs of Blogging. It was a panel of bloggers giving their opinion and as much as I appreciated their answers, I was hoping for there to be more of a... Ruckus? Arguments? Drama? I mean, not to be crazy or anything, but sometimes those kinds of panels/discussions are the best kind because it really brings out the emotions!
I had my own opinions for some of the questions so I thought I'd address them here...I was too much of a pansy to say them out loud to that whole room this weekend. Don't kill me now!
1. Is it possible to gain popularity without being friends with or linked to by “big” bloggers?
-Oh hell yeah! I know several bloggers who are pretty popular and don't even really talk to the "big" bloggers who we all think will give us instant stardom. As high and mighty as it might be to see our stats shoot through the roof, it's really the context and content in which each blogger runs their blog that keeps people coming back and supporting them through whatever journey they might be undertaking!
2. Do you feel pressure to be like the big bloggers who publish multiple times a day and have amazing photos?
-Oh hell yeah, again! I'm always feeling pressured to make my pictures gorgeous like the ones taken with people's canon rebels and so on. But ya know what? I make the best of what I do blog. I try to provide as much natural lightings and actually, I like to use various angles for my pictures instead of worrying so much about how sharp or bright they might look. I think that gives a bit of variety.
And as far as publishing multiple times a day, I don't really care much about it because I know I simply can't. My job makes it mandatory that I'm out in the field where seriously, most of the time there isn't cell reception and I have to carry an emergency satellite transmitter with me! Hahaha!
3. How do you handle personal attacks or unnecessary comments?
-This is one thing I have had to deal with on a daily basis. I don't address it on the blog much (except for a few major moments that really hurt me) because really, these people don't deserve to be addressed. I have been called a hypocrite for writing about recovery when I seem to be struggling so much and so many other bad names that it really hurts just to think about. I have also been told that I need to gain weight, that I'm still anorexic and even that I'm fat...but I brush it all off without a second thought. I know that these people probably have some underlying problem or envy and are just taking it out on me because they don't know how to deal with it on there own. So why should I feel brought down when it's not my supposed flaws that are the problem but there own?
4. Does blogging pressure you to be perfect?
I'm always pressured to be perfect on my blog; I mean I've lived with an eating disorder for over seven years that focuses on control and perfectionism. But you know what? It's my blog, my place to write and express every thought that runs through this head.
Some people think that we should be living a life full of outings, friends, money and a steady job. Do I live that kind of life? Half of it I suppose...I go out and hang out with friends, but I sure as heck don't have steady jobs all the time and make a bucket load of money. I do my jobs with the environment because I love them, no matter now nuts they might seem. I've been shot down because I declined a nice $$$ job w/ the marine corp years ago for a job that would last only 6 months at 9/hr and got paid for 40hrs/wk but worked more like 60-70hr/wk. It's a matter of personal choice, love and adventure. I love love love what I do; how could I not love being outside playing with birds and bugs and so many other things that well, probably could kill me are fun!
So I don't have to be perfect. Besides, who's perfect anyways? What is perfect? WHO is perfect? Um, no one...even in utopia.
5. What’s the most positive thing that has happened to you as a direct result of blogging?
-Blogging has been a heaven-send for me. The bonds I've made with so many bloggers has gotten me through some of the worst of times and can always bring a smile to my face. That and I always have a place to crash in the various cities that I travel to and through for work.
The blog also provides me the support I need when I'm struggling with my eating disorder; it's not something that can be done alone. I need the comfort and love that I've gotten and I hope to keep getting over the years I keep on blogging.
What do you think? Do you have a differing or similar opinion? How do you deal with blogging, comments, etc.? ]]