My Ups and Downs of Blogging

Sorry you didn’t give a post about yesterday but my doctor’s appointment did not reveal the results I was hoping for.  I’m not going to go into detail about it, but just keep your fingers crossed it’s not going to get any worse.

Anyhow, not to start this post off somber, I’m back at my home and with my kitty!  Honey was freak’n crazy by the time I finally got home Monday night and I couldn’t help but laugh…and be paranoid that when I pulled my sheets back they would either be torn to shreds or pee’d on.  I’m paranoid, what can I say!?

Today started off on a tired note after a draining day yesterday but at least I started it with my favorite breakfast!  Now you might be thinking, isn’t it hard having your cereal completely dry, just mixed with pb and fruit?

To me?  Nope; I hate soggy cereal so this keeps everything crunchy!  And you wonder why I eat it so often!

The morning went by super hot, in the hundreds and I was sweat’n through every single pore I possess.  Water water water!  I snacked on water filled fruits like 1/2 an apple and some cherries.  Cooled me down for…2 seconds flat.

I got home at a decent hour and instead of having the apple/cinnamon/pb wrap I made, I settled on a whole wheat farmer’s market pita with hummus, and veggies and a side of kiwi.

And if that weren’t enough, I was still hot so I “dessert’d” with some lactose free vanilla ice cream and some chocolate covered pretzels…in which a few whole ones might have gotten to my mouth before the ice cream.
I spent the afternoon doing work and getting 10 inches taken off my body…what? My waist or hips? Oh hell no, I’m talking about my hair!  For the past few years I have taken the time and care of my hair to get anywhere from 8-10 inches cut off to donate to either Locks of Love or Pantene Beautiful Lengths.  I haven’t cut or trimmed my hair since May of last year when I cut it for the same reason.  Sorry, I don’t have a picture, but it looks the same as last year’s cut.  Besides, I’m sure the person who is going to be able to wear my hair will look much better than me with it on.
Anyhow, I hit up an organic farm this afternoon to pick up a few things for dinner and the rest of the week.  So dinner calls for roasted vegetables!  I bought some fingerling potatoes in red and purple and couldn’t wait to try!
All together I roasted brussel sprouts, squash and potatoes in garlic and Italian spices:

Along with some hummus and ketchup.  Such great dippers!

Dessert was a small mix of grapes, cereal and a mini york peppermint patty.  Strange but I wanted juicy, crunchy and cold.  Everything satisfied my cravings!
[[Side Note: My Ups and Downs of Blogging
So one of the sessions we got to attend at HLS was the Ups and Downs of Blogging.  It was a panel of bloggers giving their opinion and as much as I appreciated their answers, I was hoping for there to be more of a... Ruckus? Arguments?  Drama?  I mean, not to be crazy or anything, but sometimes those kinds of panels/discussions are the best kind because it really brings out the emotions!
I had my own opinions for some of the questions so I thought I'd address them here...I was too much of a pansy to say them out loud to that whole room this weekend.  Don't kill me now!

1. Is it possible to gain popularity without being friends with or linked to by “big” bloggers?


-Oh hell yeah!  I know several bloggers who are pretty popular and don't even really talk to the "big" bloggers who we all think will give us instant stardom.  As high and mighty as it might be to see our stats shoot through the roof, it's really the context and content in which each blogger runs their blog that keeps people coming back and supporting them through whatever journey they might be undertaking!


2. Do you feel pressure to be like the big bloggers who publish multiple times a day and have amazing photos?


-Oh hell yeah, again!  I'm always feeling pressured to make my pictures gorgeous like the ones taken with people's canon rebels and so on.  But ya know what?  I make the best of what I do blog.  I try to provide as much natural lightings and actually, I like to use various angles for my pictures instead of worrying so much about how sharp or bright they might look.  I think that gives a bit of variety.


And as far as publishing multiple times a day, I don't really care much about it because I know I simply can't.  My job makes it mandatory that I'm out in the field where seriously, most of the time there isn't cell reception and I have to carry an emergency satellite transmitter with me!  Hahaha!


3. How do you handle personal attacks or unnecessary comments?


-This is one thing I have had to deal with on a daily basis.  I don't address it on the blog much (except for a few major moments that really hurt me) because really, these people don't deserve to be addressed.  I have been called a hypocrite for writing about recovery when I seem to be struggling so much and so many other bad names that it really hurts just to think about.  I have also been told that I need to gain weight, that I'm still anorexic and even that I'm fat...but I brush it all off without a second thought.  I know that these people probably have some underlying problem or envy and are just taking it out on me because they don't know how to deal with it on there own.  So why should I feel brought down when it's not my supposed flaws that are the problem but there own?


4. Does blogging pressure you to be perfect?


I'm always pressured to be perfect on my blog; I mean I've lived with an eating disorder for over seven years that focuses on control and perfectionism.  But you know what?  It's my blog, my place to write and express every thought that runs through this head.


Some people think that we should be living a life full of outings, friends, money and a steady job.  Do I live that kind of life?  Half of it I suppose...I go out and hang out with friends, but I sure as heck don't have steady jobs all the time and make a bucket load of money.  I do my jobs with the environment because I love them, no matter now nuts they might seem.  I've been shot down because I declined a nice $$$ job w/ the marine corp years ago for a job that would last only 6 months at 9/hr and got paid for 40hrs/wk but worked more like 60-70hr/wk.  It's a matter of personal choice, love and adventure.  I love love love what I do; how could I not love being outside playing with birds and bugs and so many other things that well, probably could kill me are fun!


So I don't have to be perfect.  Besides, who's perfect anyways?  What is perfect?  WHO is perfect?  Um, no one...even in utopia.


5. What’s the most positive thing that has happened to you as a direct result of blogging?


-Blogging has been a heaven-send for me.  The bonds I've made with so many bloggers has gotten me through some of the worst of times and can always bring a smile to my face.  That and I always have a place to crash in the various cities that I travel to and through for work.  :)


The blog also provides me the support I need when I'm struggling with my eating disorder; it's not something that can be done alone.  I need the comfort and love that I've gotten and I hope to keep getting over the years I keep on blogging.


What do you think?  Do you have a differing or similar opinion?  How do you deal with blogging, comments, etc.? ]]

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22 Responses to My Ups and Downs of Blogging

  1. Mama Pea says:

    I'm worried about you and the doctor…please call, text, email if you need anything on that front.

    As for the whole blogging thing, I've been feeling really discouraged lately when I see the lack of originality in the blog world.

    Even some of the bigger blogs seem to mimic other blogs and it really makes me sad. It's no skin off my hide if someone likes another blogger's style and tries to imitate that. What bothers me, though, is that the 2nd blogger in my mind isn't comfortable in their own blogging skin. They don't trust who THEY truly are. They don't share THEIR voice. And I get mad at myself for continuing to read these blogs instead of trying to find something new and original. Someone who blogs with courage (like YOU absolutely do).

    This wasn't meant to be negative or blog bashing, it really is just encouragement to others to not be afraid to be themselves. After all, YOU do YOU better than anyone else can!

    Thinking of you, hon and hope you are okay.

  2. peace-love-fit says:

    I love your side notes and your blog. I have turned to the blogging community recently as a form of recovery from my ED.

    :) – Kaitlyn

  3. Run Sarah says:

    Sorry to hear about your appointment – crossing my fingers for you. I love dry cereal too! Definite ups and downs for blogging – I love the community, ability to share recipes, workouts, taking photos, etc but sometimes I feel guilty if I miss a post or get upset by hurtful comments. Like anything else, it has it's ups and downs and right now there are more ups for blogging for me. But if the scale went the other way, I think I would stop.

  4. balancejoyanddelicias says:

    I sooo agree with everything you said about blogging ups and down, we do what we can, we're not perfect in the real world, useless to pretend to be perfect in blogging. I also like the fact that you don't address insulting comments simply because they don't deserve to be addressed!!

    hope you get good news from your doc soon!

  5. theemptynutjar says:

    1- I agree with Mama Pea

    2- I hope you are okay hon

    3 – I love your blog..u are a "famous" blogger to me :)

    4 – I talked about all this blog-business/worries in my last 3 posts…been on my mind too.

  6. ~ Diana ~ says:

    I've actually been pretty lucky and haven't gotten a negative comment…maybe no one reads..hahah. Anyways, the blogging community has opened my eyes up to what support can do for you. My real life friends have no concept of the depth of my eating issues and they have no idea what it's like to be a foodie. I love your honesty and that's why I keep coming here! BTW 10 inches? Your hair didn't even look that long!! Good for you though! :) -mymarblerye

  7. Sara says:

    I love your blog because you're honest…and you're not perfect. That makes it real.

    Please take care of yourself. I hope you're okay.

  8. Meghann says:

    You should have spoke up girl! I was looking for something more interesting in that panel too.

    And I am a zillion times bummed we didn't get to spend more time together. I <3 you in more ways than you know!

  9. Faith @ lovelyascharged says:

    I love your perspective on these issues. I think blogging can inherently create a LOT of pressure in various forms and if we give in to it, it really saps the fun out of the whole process. For the record? I LOVE you blog just how it is and you better keep on keeping on just how you're doing now :)

  10. From Here to There. In Purple. says:

    I have to agree with Mama Pea, about the originality. blogging is supposed to be about sharing your OWN experiences… not what everyone else wants to read…

    wishing you nothing but the very best my love! hope the doctor goes well
    xo bec

  11. Krista says:

    I'm sorry to hear about the doctor appointment. Hope all is OK, hun!

    I love my blog, but I don't take it as seriously as some of the "big" blogs do. I don't have the time to post multiple times a day and I don't earn any money on my posts. I blog because I enjoy it as a hobby. As for negative comments….I don't really get enough comments to have negativce ones! LOL

  12. Lara (Thinspired) says:

    I am so impressed that you grew your hair out for Locks of Love! I have always wanted to do that.

    I really appreciate your words and thoughts about blogging. I feel like there is so much pressure to post a certain amount of times, or be connected to a certain group of people, that the enjoyment of blogging starts to fade. I think it's something everyone fights, but I love hearing that I'm not the only one.

    I understand you not wanting to talk about medical stuff on the blog. Whatever it is, I hope you are getting good care, and I'm sending good thoughts your way, Melissa! <3

  13. Angela says:

    I'm sorry to hear about the doctor, hope it all gets better!

    There are alot of ups and downs with blogging. I'm fairly new to it all so I haven't dealt with some of the issues you mentioned but I do have some thoughts around big bloggers. I've noticed not only do some try to imitate those blogs, but they also try to build relationships and in their eagerness they forget about their readers and other bloggers that they have relationships with. That makes me really sad and it also makes me question their real reason for blogging. I feel like its high school all over again and we're in a popularity contest. I come to the blogging world for its realness and honesty so this is kind of a let down for me.

    Wow, sorry for the little novel. And sorry for venting, this is just something that's been bothering me for a while.

  14. Angela says:

    I'm sorry to hear about the doctor, hope it all gets better!

    There are alot of ups and downs with blogging. I'm fairly new to it all so I haven't dealt with some of the issues you mentioned but I do have some thoughts around big bloggers. I've noticed not only do some try to imitate those blogs, but they also try to build relationships and in their eagerness they forget about their readers and other bloggers that they have relationships with. That makes me really sad and it also makes me question their real reason for blogging. I feel like its high school all over again and we're in a popularity contest. I come to the blogging world for its realness and honesty so this is kind of a let down for me.

    Wow, sorry for the little novel. And sorry for venting, this is just something that's been bothering me for a while.

  15. Natalie says:

    1. i hope all's okay on the health front! thinking about you!
    2. those choc covered pretzels? NOM. i want some. now.
    3. great post about blogging ups and downs. you are truly great!

  16. Amanda - RunToTheFinish says:

    first yea for kitties, they make life good.

    second holy cow how awesome you are donating to locks of love!!!

    finally thank you for talking about bloggers, we don't need to all be the same and shouldn't feel like we do

  17. Mica says:

    Your beginning of this post was cryptic and worrisome. I hope everything is okay.

    I sometimes wish that my blog were more "popular," but then I realize that I would have rather have fewer, meaningful comments than a lot of crappy ones like "OMG THAT LOOKS SO TASTY. YUM!" I don't like commenting for the sake of commenting, and I think it's one of the weird pressures in blog-world. And the best thing that has happened as a result of blogging? Definitely meeting my birthmom.

  18. eatmovelove says:

    "I know that these people probably have some underlying problem or envy and are just taking it out on me because they don't know how to deal with it on there own. So why should I feel brought down when it's not my supposed flaws that are the problem but there own?"

    BINGO!!!
    thank you for that …you don't realize how much these words even begin to mean to me. God Bless.

  19. Ameena says:

    Hi there – just found your blog and I too am in Southern California!

    I don't feel a ton of pressure to measure up to the major bloggers because I honestly don't read about them too much. I'm happy reading my few not so popular blogs and spending the rest of my time following links to learn more about other people (hence how I ended up here!).

    I hope that you are feeling okay and that things get better on the health front!

  20. Jeri says:

    Hey love, call me if you need someone to talk to! I hope everything is ok. I miss your face!!!! :)

  21. Lisa @ I'm an Okie says:

    I think the main thing I dislike about blogging is the comparison and always having people try to be popular and to be the best.

    I am me and that's all I can be.

  22. Marianne (frenchfriestoflaxseeds) says:

    Remember me? I haven't been around much reading, well, many blogs (damn life getting in the way), but somehow now that school has started again, I've found time to catch up. Amazing, eh?

    I just wanted to comment to let you know that I find your answers, and the whole idea of that seminar at the HLS really interesting. It's great to hear some perspective on how people feel about blogging, how they compare to other bloggers, etc. Obviously, I didn't attend the conference, so I don't know how all the conversation went, but I can relate to your answers…although I can't say I've had many negative comments. Not really sure why either.

    Off to catch up on the rest of your posts :)

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